little things

 Someone mowed the lawn outside my building so, everytime I walk on it, there are lots of grass sticking on my shoes ; I painted my nails black ; I went to my internship this morning and saw a cute lizard on the way home ; I found old pants that fit me nicely and it made me happy ; Henriette slept all night by my side and, for the first time in days, I didn't have a nightmare, it's without a doubt thanks to her. 

I was tired this morning then happy when I arrived at WORK because I'll soon be EMPLOYED and then I came home and I felt annoyed and pissed off for no reason. I wanted to write but I couldn't so I tried to create a new OC on the Sims (because I can't draw anymore) for The Brief History. She's a popstar who has beef with Barnabé but I'm still trying looks and ideas for her... I'd like for her looks to not match her personality but without falling too much into caricatures or stuff like that. Her name will probably be something like Rosalina Valentine but it'll only be her stage name. Like Chappell Roan. To be honest, I'd like this popstar to be like Chappell Roan if she existed back in 2006. Which might be easy but I have to admit I don't have a lot of cultural awareness of what was happening with music back then. I have to do some research but I never really know how or where to look... But that's a me problem. 

Anyway, tomorrow I'm not working because I have an appointment and my manager thought it'd be better that I come all day on Wednesday... I'm not a huge fan of full-days at work but I couldn't say no because they needed me all day so... Yeah. It'll be tiring but I'll survive. In the meantime, I'll have to make a few applications before my appointment. And I have to update my curriculum... And I'd like to write! Please let me write! Why can I rant and rant and rant but as soon as I try to use my brain to create anything, it's empty and blank? Let me write! I miss my OCs! I miss my story! I also miss my friends' reactions to what I write! I hope I'll get my creativity back before 2025.