horses

 I decided 2025 will be the year I learn how to draw horses. I started sketching horses from pictures, forcing myself to use a ballpoint pen so I can't erase them. It's really, really hard because they're so ugly and I'd just want to be good at it immediately but I just can't because I never learned how to draw horses before. It's taking me a lot of will to not just give up. 

Here are the first few I did. They're not really good, obviously. Some are even outrageous but that's why I want to learn ! So I hope I'll make some progress over time and I'll update you. :)

perfect

 My therapist told me I have to stop being such a perfectionist. And, of course, she's right. It's kinda ruining my life if you think about it. Whatever I do is never good enough for my own standards. So I'm trying to distance myself from them, I'm trying hard to do stuff even if it sucks. It's really hard... 

This year, I want to be able to create things without being too harsh on myself. It has to be okay if this crochet square is a bit wonky or if this horse's legs look off. Nothing is perfect so why should I be? This year, I want to draw horses. As many as I can. Only practice can make it perfect !

coming back

 It's been a while oh god... I didn't make time to write and then things happened, it was the holidays then I went back to work and now I'm there... I wanted to write about last year, all the things that happened but I realize every time I have ideas about a "big" piece, I simply never do it. So I thought I'd just come back and say hi. Hi! 

Things are okay, right now. I spend some good quality time with my friends over the holidays, I often talk by messages with my favourite ex-coworker (I miss him dearly, work ain't the same without him), I've watched a lot of movies since the start of the year and I'm reading books and trying really, really hard to make a square in crochet. So, yeah, life is good right now. If not good, then it's alright. Nothing much more to say about it, honestly. 

I'll try to come more often to lay down my thoughts on here, the way I really want to use this blog!