Internship 3

So, my first day at my new internship went alright. The people are nice, the place is great, the work is alright. I don't mind it even if I have to do stuff I barely remember how to do. But, for a reason I can't quite understand, I don't feel good about it. At all. I felt so out of place and lost all day! And it's not because of the job but more because of the people. Once again, they're all really nice. The problem is me. I don't know how to act with people. I feel weird and stupid and awkward at all times and it takes a lot of my energy just to be sitting in the same space as all of them. 

At the end of the day, I felt exhausted. Like, pure exhaustion. I wanted to cry and so I did. 

I'm not going today because I have an appointment and things to do but I'm scared of tomorrow. I know it'll be okay, I'll do my work and people will still be nice but I'll still feel out of place. I'll feel sad and awkward and wish I wasn't there. It's just hard because I know no one there and they don't know me either. It's only a little internship so I can have more experience so they don't really know my curriculum or what I did before. They expect me to work as usual but the last time I made these kind of things was roughly five years ago! 

But I'll go tomorrow and it'll be alright. Doesn't matter if they didn't give me a schedule or if I don't know where my manager's office is. It's okay if the people find me a bit weird. I have to remind myself that I'm doing this so I can gain more experience and learn new things. Or just learn how to work again.

I just hope tomorrow will really be alright.