Internship

I got an internship in a museum and I start working next Monday.

I haven't worked in a year and a half since there are not much job opportunities in my field and I live, basically, in the middle of nowhere. So this internship is a great opportunity. I've always wanted to work in a museum since I was a little kid but it never really happened because you have to get diplomas and study for a long time and I suck at studying. I don't really recall ever studying while in school. I just had plenty of luck and a serious amount of anxiety. I was never an outstanding student but my grades mostly stayed above the average so I wasn't a bad student either. Most of my teachers wouldn't probably remember me now. I was the quiet child sitting in the middle of the classroom with nothing to say and nothing to be said about. 

I'm glad I get this opportunity to try new things and to get out of my room. It's been 18 months since I last worked. And I spent all this time in my room, except for a few occasions. But travelling to see my friends for a weekend doesn't really count. So I look forward to it. But it's also kinda nerve-wracking. I'm a very anxious person and I'm not good with people I don't know. Thankfully, I've already had a meeting with my future manager and I've seen the place or else I'd probably die on the spot. Also, it'll only be for a month. It's not some long-term commitment. It means I don't have to be stressed about these people because I'll probably won't see them anymore after this internship. I'm still feeling anxious, thought. But I think it's the good kind? I wouldn't know how to explain it because I think my brain is just weird but even thought I'm fucking terrified, I also feel like it'll be a really good thing. 

And I'm also grateful that one of my friends will be staying at my house for the first two weeks so I won't feel really alone going in. Doesn't matter that I live with my mom. It isn't the same thing. 

Anyway, I just wanted to come in there and write a bit because it's been a while. I think I put too much pressure on myself with this blog when it's literally just a blog! I can write anything I want and I shouldn't be afraid of what I write being lame or whatever. And even if it is, I don't care! So, yeah, I'll try coming more. I'd like for this place to feel like a real archive of myself and not only a forgotten thing. 

On another note, I'm seeing Olivia Rodrigo in THREE WEEKS!!!!!!!!! I'm suuuuper excited!! It's going to be fucking cool!!