lazy tuesday

 I did nothing all day but make sims and be sad... ENOUGH! I took a shower and now I have to eat but I lack so much energy and motivation... I wish they could invent food that'd make you feel great....... I know vegetables exist. And fruits. If only eating an apple didn't feel so tiring... I miss my apple era... 

To be honest, I miss being able to focus on one (1) thing and being obsessed with it. All my obsessions come and go, they never last long and I can feel them slipping through my fingers. Where has gone the Sarsh who sat in front of a computer and wrote forty pages about Azula? Where is she? I miss her. I miss when my mental illnesses didn't constrain me. When I could analyze and say somewhat interesting stuff. Nowadays, I feel like I lost my ability to be smart. Not that I've ever been a genius but I think I can't use my brain the same... 

Anyway, I'll probably eat cereals and go to sleep soon because I'm reaaaaally tired and tomorrow I have a BIG day! 8am-5pm! I'm not used to working such hours anymore... But at least I'll probably sign my JOB CONTRACT!!! Because I might not be interesting Sarsh right now but I'm EMPLOYED SARSH!!